Just some thoughts that found their way into my mind earlier today.

The idea of having  to take pills to be happy and normal moves mountains in me. And not in a good way. It's like robotically living a  life that your not really even living because it's  not even really you. It's an enhanced version of yourself because society and doctors and man decided that your real self is too messed up and different to fit in with "normal."  When I think of pills I see a body, like a machine with gears all corroded on the inside, but shiny and brand new on the outside, being fed by and running on the pills. they are what keep the outside looking new, but the inside never changes, it is still corroded, still on the verge of malfunction, but the effect of medicine is the guild. instead of this machine completely breaking down, in the case of death, the inside gears are just kept going by the flow of the drugs, making the person function, numbly, oblivious to the fact that they are still "screwed (so I don't use a more violent, inappropriate word)"  up on the inside, and that the only thing that keeps them going and keeps their image on the outside as what everyone thinks as "normal" is the pills.I don't think people who take meds ever experience real happiness. because, after a while of taking meds to control your emotions and thoughts and actions, you start to become numb to certain things and just become used to being forced by a pill to feel that way, being managed by a pill.
I like to image a world where everyone is irrevocably crazy, spontaneous, too happy, too hyper, too different, too unique, who love one another too much, and are still called normal. A world where everyone is crazy and its ok. a world where society doesn't create an image for man to follow and live by. A world where happiness doesn't have to come from a small chemical filled pill. A world where drugs don't have to be administered to those who are not completely normal, where they can be themselves, and live spontaneously and freely, not bound by the "norms" of society.  sadly, That's never gonna happen, because those beautiful magical things don't exist. Just an ugly reality is what we have to live and cope with for the remainder of our lives.